Sheer extraordinariness

The sheer extraordinariness, the sheer contrariness, of trans hovers in the background of trans discourse that tries its best to normalise itself. Trans is a freaky, contrary phenomenon: I suspect we must all feel that really.

It's the sort of thing one thinks happens only  to other people. Not even the other people you know: the strange ones, in films and books.

And yet I am one of those strange people.

The matter of disapproval can overshadow the matter of disbelief. I might not be ashamed of it, but can I really trust it, an internal feeling than flies in the face of not just culture but physical reality?

I should be strong and trust it. Claiming that strength is in itself empowering.

See the richness in the extraordinary.

Take pleasure and pride in it. Feel privileged.

I have this extra special facet in my life. An extra dimension to my experience of sexuality and gender.

It is up to me to savor my inner gender.

I intend to enjoy it.