T-female

Any avid, long-term readers of my blogs may have noticed how a regular theme is my strong sense of identification and bond with other crossdreamers. I'm hot on this, aren't I?

What isn't a theme is a sense of my identification and bond with women.

This latter is because I don't feel such things.

There is a sense in which I feel that attractive women are expressing something deep within me, rather than something external to me which I would like to posses through sexual interaction. I sometimes feel when I see women acting in the world, 'it would be nice if I could act in the world like that'. But I do not feel that I actually am the same kind of person as them. Something kindred deep within me perhaps, but the deep within is not all of a person, and interpretation of it can only really be speculative.

Whatever the potential at birth, I have not had the experience of being brought up in the world as a woman, so I have not become one.

Hence I am uneasy at describing myself and other crossdreamers as female, whatever the reality and importance of our trans feelings. So I like to describe our sense of our femaleness as t-femaleness. We are t-females, or at least there are t-females within us.

I'm not going to be strict about this, but even if I don't always actually preface 'female' with 't-', 't-female' is what I mean in a crossdreamer context.

We haven't been brought up as female, and of course that has greatly affected who we are. Nor can we really be certain of any actual scientific femaleness within us. But we are crossdreamers, which is all about our sense of femaleness within us. That in itself is a very important part of who we are. Isn't it, t-sisters?