It's quite a thought that I was brought up on the assumption that I didn't have any sense of t-femalenes within me. So much of the shaping of me has been without acknowledgement of that very important part.
To reidentify, reinterpret myself in a way that takes on board, integrates the t-femaleness is quite something. It's a project that needs bold pursual, and constant reaffirmation. It's a brave and important project.
It's a project that should go beyond sexual stimulation. Merely to get sexual gratification from such thoughts and not develop them further is denying an important part of me. Even if that part is itself very sexual. Throughout society sexual desire is a major motivation in social interaction and in self-presentation. This doesn't make the interaction and presentation false. The ladies' man really is a ladies' man; the seductress really is a seductress. The sexual nature of their goals doesn't mean they should just fantasise and masturbate these elements out of their systems.
T-femaleness can be a refuge, an inner comfort zone, as well as a reliable pleasure. That is fine. But there's a bigger way for me to embrace it.
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