Debbie the real inner girl

I wish to accept my inner femaleness more thoroughly.

I feel like I have crossed a divide. I feel more convinced of the reality of my inner woman, Debbie, and wish to be her fully.

This is distinct from being a crossdreaming male.The primary drive of my online presence as Deborah Kate, especially at Crossdream Life,  has been to uphold crossdreaming as a sexuality, to support everyone of a crossdreaming sexual persuasion. I am pleased to have been doing that.

But I also feel a sense of inner femaleness that is not quite met by crossdreaming sexuality. Being inwardly female is not the same as getting off on the idea of being female.

Poignant evidence for the reality of my inner female is that when I write comments such as this I feel very close to tears. I feel the feelings of a repressed, confined, abused inner woman.

I am not making a scientific claim or political demand, and I am not thinking of transitioning, so I am not wanting a debate about my self-interpretation.

For understanding the relationship between inner femaleness and crossdreaming sexuality, Jack Molay's thoughts on this in the last couple of years have been very helpful (see my Sissies and Bad Girls thread at Crossdream Life). So thanks Jack. xxx

Of course I still intend to enjoy crossdreaming sexuality, and to welcome all crossdreamers to Crossdream Life, respecting their own interpretation of their crossdreaming and opposing any attempt at a 'party line' about its causes or anything else.

More to follow...

Love,
Debbie xxx