Exile

'So how do you feel about having a trans outer self, Deborah?'

'Well, it's the human condition, innit? I'm not the only one to have been banished from the Garden of Eden, am I? Don't tell me that cisgendered people are all beaming with happiness. I've seen 'em and they ain't.

Guess I shouldn't have fooled around with that there snake. Oh, but he was so sexy in all his slimy slitheriness. So much more enticing than boring, stiff old Adam.'

Rolled around in femme

The mighty forces of sexuality and gender thrust deep into me.

They propel me into the femme.

My mind composes these words, but how tiny is my mind compared to these mighty forces.

I am being rolled around in femme by the mighty forces of sexuality and gender.

I could hate it, I could scream 'no, no, this isn't right, this isn't where I belong.'

But fortunately I fucking love it. I am at home in the femme.

And what a delightful home it is. xxx

Trans outer self

When describing yourself as 'I', I encourage you not to identify that 'I' with your rl appearance and persona.

Identify as your inner woman.

Consider that what's trans about you is not your inner woman, it's your outer man.

You can think of your rl self as being like yourself working in a job. Many people would say that at work they are not fully 'being themselves'. But your work self is not a false self, it's more like a sub-self that develops through negotiating its environment. No need to resent or dislike it: the world is not ideal, we have to adapt.

If you are comfortable with that trans element you are 'non-dysphoric'.

Yet your inner self is a vast realm. If you just regard it as an introjection of your outer self you are wasting much of its potential.

If you feel a calling to be transgender in your inner self then enjoy going with it. It's an exciting adventure.

Your 'I' is the gender you choose it to be.

The sexier the better.

Your sexuality comes from deep with in you. xxx

Femdeb

Oh I so love my inner femininity.

It makes me proud and happy.

I bask contendedly in its sumptuousness. xxx

Electric pink animal

I am a thoughtful person most of the time, but when sexuality pulses through me it is an electric current, I am its machine. Or I am an animal, determined by impulse.

An electric animal. Electric pink animal cd-babe.

In the very real realm of my interior, this is who I am. It is not just a fantasy, not just what I'd like to be. Sometimes it isn't what I'm wanting to be. But it is who I am.

An electric pink animal cd-babe.

Are you one too? xxx